Eric Fenandez @ E

Never be the same again..

2012-01-23T10:17:00.000-08:00

Ola E Bloggers..
Long time I did not update my blog..
A lot of story to tell..
A lot of pics to post...
For the pics u can always go to my Facebook and from there u can really see how is E life in Bali as a medical student..
I wanna blog about it but something come out to my mind..
About friendship..
I miss my frenz..
That's what I always said and 'tak pernah sedetik pun saya melupakan mereka atas segala kenangan yang diberikan'
I wanna meet them again but I know the time will come one day..
For now, maybe I wanna avoid them first...
Why???
The reasons that only E can unlock..
I realized that I'm getting different everyday..
Getting more to a path that I will never turn back..
Separated from the real me..
Some of my frenz said that I changed a lot..
Wilder..Lots of exposure..
Wow..
Who Am I now???
Huh..
I....
can only say, 'This is Me'..
Crying is not an option now..
Time to move on..
Experience is the best teacher..
I started my own adventure already..
I miss them..a lot..
My old self????
Maybe I will 'UNFRIEND' with that person..
I <3 myself now..
Never be the same again..

I miss u all my frenz..especially those who are closer to me..

Love E

So sad..

2011-12-20T07:26:00.000-08:00

How I wish..
I wanna cry..
A lot..

Sorry if u find it not matured for my age but this is how I feel..
Not everyone accept ourselves..
The way we think, the way we talk, the way we walk..
I wanna be close to everyone..
But...
not everyone have the same interest and most sadly...
is when they wanna u to be like them which are not in ur repetoire..
Crying..
I cried a lot and become weak last time but for now..
I gotta be strong..
There are peoples who accept the way I am..
Even though there are haters but I am not alone...

Bali Part 3

2011-12-09T22:20:00.000-08:00

Performance!!!!

I love performance!!!!

Malam Gala is the night for all Malaysian student (junior) in Udayana University to be graduated from Orientation organized by PKPMI BALI 2011!!!

U know...

We were all waiting for the Gala Night so that we can show our talents to all our seniors since orientation..

Haha..

Wanna know what performance am I in??

First..

Sarawak Dance..

A traditional dance..

Something that I'm scared to dance to as my body is not suitable for it...

But..

Here..

They were all asking me to promote the native dance from Sarawak..

OMD!!!

So, I choreographed the dance for the first time...

Finally I made it...

Thanz to my dancers..

Gregory, Allwin, Syafiqah, Dakshayini and Sharon..

U guys were great that night!!!

After traditional dance was the Sketch lead by Jaya Preshilan..

A very good sketch..

Thumbs up to everyone..

Fusion dance came after that..

Mixture of Indian Dance (Kacheri song), Korean dance (mashed up of Oh!!), Bangra dance and All-For-One from HSM2!!!

Cute dancers btw..haha..

Then came the Toxic Dance..

Lead by E..

OMD!!!!

I mixed 4 Minutes by Madonna ft Justin Timberlake (Glee version), Gee by SNSD, Toxic by my idol Britney Spears and last song When I Grow Up by Pussycat Doll..

My dancers were AWESOME!!!

AZRI, SUGHAN, SURAIN, JAYA, HARITHARAN, SANJIVAN and VICKRAM!!!

OMD!!!

AnD!!!

My expression!!!

I don't even know what I looked like when I was dancing..

OMD!!!

Watch this..

Then we went for The Sketch lead by Jaeynisha Matavan..

Nice sketch and I love the ending part..

Sad story btw..Haha..

Good job J!!!

My part was with the Lead Actor Vickram Subramanian and I palyed the role as his BF..

Best Friend!!!

He showed me and introduced to me the girl that he love..

My dialogue..

Wait for it..

"Fuyoo Hot Stuff!!, hey go and get her..this is your chance u know"

That's all...

HEhe...

Now we moved on to Modern Dance..

The song was mixed up of OMG by Usher (Boys-Vickram, Sughan, Arvinth, Surain and Jay Preshilan only except E), Whine Up by Kat Deluna (Girls-Norhara, Usha, Dakshini, Miru and Sinthu with E)

and Indian song (both without E)

E was juz a FT that time..

Singing..

Can u guys believe that I became a singer for one night event??

Never been done in KTT before but I done it here...

Haha..

I performed a duet with Punggkothai, a ballad song of My Heart..

haha..

Love it and I received a flower from my senior..

So sweet...

And Syafiqah performed a Tamil song with Punggkothai..

AWESOME!!!

Congratz!!!

Boys Own Performance..

After all finished, I was never expected that we had an Award Ceremony that night..
The first award was the Best Performer Award..
For the first time in Gala Night organized by PKPMI BALI they made one new award specially for our batch..
And the winner...
E!!!!
OMD!!!
I can't believe it u know!!!!
Haha..
When they called my name I was like, 'OMD!!! to the max!!!!'
Love it!!!

Then the Award for the Most Sporting Male Junior goes to..
ALLWIN!!!

Award for Most Sporting Female Junior..
NORHARA!!!

Award for Best Male Junior..
My batch Captain..
VIMALABHARATI!!!!

Award for Best Female Junior..
PUNGKOTTHAI!!!!!

Best Team 2011...
E Group!!!
CARL JUNG!!!!

OMD!!!!!

We were thrilled and enjoyed the night and we had the chance to dance again that night..
OPEN DANCE FLOOR!!!
All were dancing like a maniac..

I only posted some of the pics so u can go to my Facebook page and go to this page http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.2778040812921.2150056.1315140814&type=3 for more pics..
The video I will upload soon k..

E True Story of E Life in Bali..
More stories to come..
LOVE U GUYS!!!
LOVE E!!!

E Life in Bali..SECRET REVEALED!!!!! Chapter 2

2011-11-27T07:01:00.000-08:00

Hmm..
As an intro, I wanna ask u guys...
Did u believe relationship can be build in seconds???
Well, it proves a lot to me when the persons that are not so close and I just know them for the first time become close to us after that..
It happens with all my JPA frenz..
Hafiz, Syahir, Azri and Syafiqah......
I become close to them after we all selected to go to Universitas Udayana together after A Level..
Ex-KTTian..
Tasya, Huda and Zulaikha..
I didn't know them at first but now they are my close frenz..
I really happy that I have them as my frenz here...
JPA and Private students..
We are not different from one another...
We did not isolate ourselves from them juz become we are a scholar..
We are all the same with one mission..
To become a Doctor..
I love to make frenz with them too..
40 of us...
Haha..

Wanna see some pics to prove it..Here we are..

Wait for the next chapter as I revealed my next activity and my favourite one..
Performance..
Gala Night..

<3 E

E Life in Bali..SECRET REVEALED!!!!!

2011-11-27T05:44:00.000-08:00

Ola everyone..
I haven't update my blog for ages and now I felt like I wanna tell u from the whole beginning about E Life here..
Bali..
Heaven for Romance..
OMD!!!
I can't believe I'm saying this but this is what everyone is talking when we talked about Bali..
A very nice place and the majority of peoples here are Hindus, so we can see many 'Pura' like what like I post in previous post about Ola From Bali..
Let me start..

Malaysia...
That day..
5 September 2011..
I departed from Kuching International Airport at 615am and arrived at the LCCT around 75Oam and I had to rush to KLIA for Group Check In at 830am..
When I arrived there, I saw my JPA Officer Puan Hidayah and Mr Razib were waiting for us to check in and that time I saw all my JPA frenz came with their own family..
huhu..
It's ok......

We took a lot pictures and before that let me introduce my other JPA frenz..

From left: Hafiz, Azri, Syahir, Tasya, Zulaikha, Nurulhuda and Syafiqah..

My family pics..

And for my Besties..Rafiq and Shukri..

Thanz for the chocolate..

Bali...

Arrived in Bali around 200pm..

We were lost in Ngurah Rai International Airport as we enter a new place and a new environment and there our luggage were being packed by the staffs there and we were shocked as about 6 staffs were holding our luggage..OMD..

Actually..

It's part of their job and then we met some seniors from Universitas Udayana..

They were so friendly that time as they welcomed us to a new place called Bali...
But..
I started to realize something here..

U know...

U have to pay for the service charge for everything..

???

it's true..

even we had to pay the staffs that were holding our luggage at the airport..

We took an 'Angkut' aka 'Van Sapu' and he drove us to our place of stay..

First we were arrived at the girl's kost and we were helping them unloading the luggage from the angkut and we met our female batchmates there...

Daa..We at the girl's kost what...

OMD!!!!

We received our new Indonesian number..
XL company...

My number...Haha...

Secret..

Inbox me in Facebook if you want..Haha..

And...

We arrived at our kost at Jalan Waturenggong..

Wow..

Wanna see my kost..

After that..

The first night we all went to A&W for some session with my Bumiputra seniors..

They were AWESOME and SPORTING as they treated us like a family..

Especially for me..

I am the only one from Sarawak..

The next day, we went for SMILE programmed organised by Persatuan Kebangsaan Pelajar-Pelajar Malaysia di Indonesia (PKPMI)..

We saw a lot of private students which was also our batchmates till now and they were so friendly too..

They helped us a lot to fill the information in the documents that were provided for us..

We had a lot session of games and introduction of Education system in Bali and we had some fun learning the Balinese language and culture here..

But...

FYI..

I had to cut my hair short (Like Britney went bald last year) for the orientation here..

OMD!!!

E Bald???!!!!!
That's true..

The part that I was scared the most was the Ice Breaking part with the seniors..
We had seniors from 2005-2010 batches and about 250 seniors..
OMD2!!!
Every batch has their own batch names..
2005-Dimorpix

2006-Cyclodextrine

2007-Zwitterion

2008-Cefazolin

2009-Ambidextrous

2010-Acromion

2011-Calsequestrin (E Batch)

For SMILE programme, I like all the activities (although the Ice Breaking part can cause me Crazy!!!)..

My long life dream came true when we had the chance to go to Rumah Anak-Anak Yatim..

I miss the children there..

They were scared at first but they were fine after that...

Haha..

SMILE...........

The first day class...

OMD!!!..

First I met my batchmates..

and..

I finally met my local frenz..
they had two classes here..
REGULAR and ENGLISH class..
REGULAR-lecture is conducted in Indonesian language

ENGLISH-lecture is conducted in English ( E's here)

However...

Some lecturer prefer to use their own language for the lecture..

>>which is ~~SUCK~~ for some Malaysian students<<<

Orientation..

We had an university orientation here..

Basic Lessons on Mastering Management and Leadership (BLMML)

The First Step to Become a True Leader

This was the time when all Malaysian were separated and joined a group consisting a lot of local frenz..

My group name was ABRAHAM LINCOLN..

Firsta (my group leader), Occa, Riesky, Gek Tri, Gung Emy, Atik, Rahayu and Thia..

My groupmates..

I was the only guy in that group..

OMD!!!OMD!!OMD!!!!

It was a one month orientation..

And we got the Best Cheer, 2nd Place for Creative Project, 2nd Place for Best Leader..

Haha..

Hmm..

U wanna know how my life here..

Wait for the next chapter k..

Love u guys..

Love E

Ola from Bali!!

2011-11-03T03:16:00.000-07:00

Ola..
Juz wanna say Hye from Bali..

Cannot write a lot since I promised myself that I will post about my life in Bali after my Gala Night..
Gala Night???
Haha..
I will be performing a lot on that night which include singing, acting and my favourite..DANCING!!!
Britney Spears will be my theme for that night..
Haha..
Wait for my story in 3 weeks time k..
All about my studies, my life here and after Earthquake..Hmm...
Wait for it k..
Love u guys..

Love E

VMA 2011 Nominations!!

2011-07-25T04:59:00.000-07:00

Ola people..

Video Music Award is back!!

E can't wait for that to happen!!!

The nominations list...

VIDEO OF THE YEAR

Adele, "Rolling In The Deep"
Tyler, The Creator, "Yonkers"
Katy Perry, "Firework"
Bruno Mars, "Grenade"
Beastie Boys, "Make Some Noise"

BEST FEMALE VIDEO

Adele, "Rolling In The Deep"
Katy Perry, "Firework"
Beyonce, "Run The World (Girls)"
Nicki Minaj, "Super Bass"
Lady Gaga, "Born This Way"

BEST MALE VIDEO

Cee Lo Green, "F*** You"
Eminem feat. Rihanna, "Love The Way You Lie"
Bruno Mars, "Grenade"
Kanye West feat. Rihanna & Kid Cudi, "All of the Lights"
Justin Bieber, "U Smile"

BEST HIP HOP VIDEO

Lil Wayne feat. Cory Gunz, "6'7'"
Kanye West feat. Rihanna & Kid Cudi, "All of the Lights"
Chris Brown feat. Lil Wayne & Busta Rhymes, "Look At Me Now"
Nicki Minaj, "Super Bass"
Lupe Fiasco, "The Show Goes On"

BEST NEW ARTIST

Foster The People, "Pumped Up Kicks"
Wiz Khalifa, "Black and Yellow"
Tyler, The Creator, "Yonkers"
Big Sean feat. Chris Brown, "My Last"
Kreayshawn, "Gucci Gucci"

BEST POP VIDEO

Adele, "Rolling in the Deep"
Bruno Mars, "Grenade"
Pitbull feat. Ne-Yo, Nayer & Afrojack, "Give Me Everything"
Katy Perry, "Last Friday Night (T.G.I.F.)"
Britney Spears, "Till The World Ends"

BEST ROCK VIDEO

The Black Keys, "Howlin For You"
Foo Fighters,"Walk"
Foster The People, "Pumped Up Kicks"
Mumford & Sons, "The Cave"
Cage The Elephant, "Shake Me Down"

BEST COLLABORATION

Pitbull feat. ne-Yo, Nayer & Afrojack, "Give Me Everything"
Chris Brown feat. Lil Wayne & Busta Rhymes, "Look At Me Now"
Kanye West feat. Rihanna & Kid Cudi, "All of the Lights"
Katy Perry feat. Kanye West, "E.T."
Nicki Minaj feat. Drake, "Moment 4 Life"

BEST ART DIRECTION

Adele, "Rolling In The Deep"
Katy Perry, "Firework"
Lady Gaga, "Judas"
Kanye West, "Power"
Death Cab For Cutie, "You Are A Tourist"

BEST CHOREOGRAPHY

Beyonce, "Run The World (Girls)"
Britney Spears, "Till The World Ends"
Lady Gaga, "Judas"
Bruno Mars, "The Lazy Song"
LMFAO feat. Lauren Bennett & GoonRock, "Party Rock Anthem"

BEST CINEMATOGRAPHY

Adele, "Rolling In The Deep"
Beyonce, "Run The World (Girls)"
Eminem feat. Rihanna, "Love The Way You Lie"
Katy Perry, "Teenage Dream"
30 Seconds To Mars, "Hurricane"

BEST DIRECTION

Adele, "Rolling In The Deep"
Beastie Boys, "Make Some Noise"
Katy Perry feat. Kanye West, "E.T."
30 Seconds To Mars, "Hurricane"
Eminem feat. Rihanna, "Love The Way You Lie"

BEST EDITING

Katy Perry feat. Kanye West, "E.T."
30 Seconds To Mars, "Hurricane"
Adele, "Rolling In The Deep"
Kanye West feat. Rihanna & Kid Cudi, "All of the Lights"
Manchester Orchestra, "Simple Math"

BEST SFX (SPECIAL EFFECTS)

Manchester Orchestra, "Simple Math"
Katy Perry feat. Kanye West, "E.T."
Kanye West, "Power"
Linkin Park, "Waiting For The End"
Chromeo, "Don't Turn The Lights On"

Hoping for my favourite artists, Katy Perry and Britney Spears to win that!!

LOVE E

Dangdut in E Life part 1

2011-07-20T21:41:00.000-07:00

I love Dangdut..
When I was small, I stayed in KL for 7 years and we always went to Pahang to visit my aunt there..
So while we were on the road passing all the highways and toll..
Karak..
That time Karak was famous and the only way to go to Pahang..
Now, it has become one of the famous Malay movies..haha...
back to the story..
My parents always put the dangdut casset for our entertainment for 2 hours long journey..
So now, dangdut has become part of my life...Haha..

This was one of the song..

And this..

Haha..

Wait for part 2 k..

Love E

Let's Dance Together..

2011-07-20T20:33:00.000-07:00

When I'm happy and getting to get wild..
This song fits me well!!

Love E

Jika..

2011-07-20T20:25:00.000-07:00

When I felt sad or missing someone (my BFFs!!!)..
I will hear this song..

Love E

E Farewell Outing

2011-07-17T07:13:00.000-07:00

Ola..

E Farewell Outing..
Idda, Andreana, Joe, Amy and I went to The Spring to watch Harry Potter The Deathly Hallow part 2 and I watched it twice since I went out with cousins and my lil sis yesterday...

Haha..
I brought my lil sis into the cinema hall and she cannot 'duduk diam' and I had to comfort her the whole movie and I can't focus watching the whole movie..Haha..
Many peoples thought that I was the parents..
OMD!
I'm not ready yet..
But when I watched Harry Potter at the last scene where Ron and Hermione, Harry and his wife, Draco and his wife sent their children to Hogwarts, suddenly I felt something..Parent's instinct..
I love Albus Severus Potter..
I love his eye..
Draco..

Ron..

Emma Watson..Never fails me when it comes to Hermione

Ops..Ok enough..Haha..
Btw, I love that movie but something I felt not satisfied with some part of the movie..
But at least I LOVE THE MOVIE and the ACTORS!!!

Our pics for today..

Gonna miss u IDDA and AMY!!
Flying on July 24 and July 27..
Love u guys!!
Love E!!

Sinetron Addict!!!

2011-07-13T01:34:00.000-07:00

I thought I was the only guy addicted to Sinetron and after that I realised EDWIN is a Sinetron Addict!!!Haha..

Kawin Masal..

Nice Sinetron..

Haha..I love the soundtrack too..

Love E

Jangan Menyerah

2011-07-13T01:25:00.000-07:00

This song is a soundtrack from my Sinetron TV3 Amanah Dalam Cinta

It's very inspiring song for all of my frenz who felt that the world is against them..

Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Kita pasti pernah
Dapatkan cobaan yang berat
Seakan hidup ini
Tak ada artinya lagi

Reff 1:
Syukuri apa yang ada
Hidup adalah anugerah
Tetap jalani hidup ini
Melakukan yang terbaik

Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Tuhan pasti kan menunjukkan
Kebesaran dan kuasanya
Bagi hambanya yang sabar
Dan tak kenal Putus asa

Love E

Kuching Tour with Kak Ashkurina

2011-07-12T01:25:00.000-07:00

Ola..
I wanna post this for my sis Kak Ashkurina..
She currently study at Kasturba Medical College..
She went to Kuching for her 1 month holiday!!

She came to Kuching with her parents and let me tell u..
Her family was AWESOME..
Sporting and funny..

We went to Kampung Budaya..

Kaum Iban..

Kaum Bidayuh

Kaum Melanau

Kaum Orang Ulu

Kaum Melayu Sarawak

All the pics were captured when we were watching performance in the hall..

So the next pics was about our trip to the ethnics traditional house..

Rumah Bidayuh

Rumah Iban

Rumah Penan

Rumah Orang Ulu

Rumah Melanau..The tallest house in Kampung Budaya

Rumah Melayu

Lastly, Rumah Cina..

Cat Museum tapi I x dpt tangkap gmbr kucing dalam sana..haha

Pasar Satok..

What a great trip we had in Kuching and again I was selected as the Kuching Ambassador..Haha...

Kak Ash..

Miss u and thanz for the AWESOME gifts from India..

Love E

E's Back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-07-11T21:37:00.000-07:00

Ola peoples!!

Long time I did not blogged about anything..
Haha..
Actually, I was busy with my exam and my interview in KL and I was fasting on Internet since last Thursday..
REALLY E??~!!!!

Yup..Haha..

OME!!!
Actually I was really nervous waiting for the result since the exam was tough but not as tough as UGM..OMD!!!
The Interview was AWESOME!!!
They were so friendly!!
A female lecturer interviewed me and she asked me this questions:

R u a celebrity??haha
NOT THIS QUESTION..Get real E!!

Ok..

She asked me this:

"Are your parents okay with your decision to study in Bali??"

"How many siblings do u have?"

"Tell me about your parents."

"Tell me about your siblings."

"Have you been to Bali??"

And this question that makes me shocked..

"Are you capable to pay for the courses there??"
E anwered: "I'm a JPA scholar and I'm under JPA scholarship"

Then she replied, "I hope I can see you in Bali..

I was so so so NERVOUSS!!! after the interview and colour blind test..

Because I did not answered all the questions in the exams..
80 questions but I managed to answer 69 kot..

TODAY!!!!!
I got a message and email from Nugrahan and they said I got the placement and I passed the test!!
Yeah!!!
Thanz God!!
Miracle happened to me!!!
After all the struggles that I had to face in my life..
Doing AS and A2 exams at the same time and I failed..
UGM exams but I failed to get a placement there..
Thanz GOd for this!!

Jesus Take The Wheel from me..
Thanz you Lord!!!

Listen to this people..

OME!!!

so for now, I have to attend Nugrahan Briefing on July 21..
Pre Departure Briefing on August 16 and Fly to Bali on August 17

OME!!OMD!!

Yup..Haha..

All the bez to all of my frenz who are flying to India earlier than me and I wish all the bez of luck in our journey to achieve our dreams to be a doctor and dentist..

Thanz to all my frenz for their supports and prayers for me for this exam..
I LoVe U all!!
Muah!!!
Haha..
Hope we can meet again k..

4th of July!!!

2011-07-03T09:16:00.000-07:00

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

America Independence Day..

Firework!!!

Love E

Awesome Transformation Sunday for E

2011-07-03T03:42:00.000-07:00

Hmm...
I went for a movie day with Joe 2day..
But before that we went to church..
So long I didn't go to church..
CONFESSION!!
How long????!!!
Almost 2 months..
OME!!!!!!!!!

Haha..
Ops..
So I promised I will try not to miss church again....

By the way..

We watched Transformers 3..
The movie never disappoint me as I love action movies..
Oh Transformers!!
I wish I have that car...

OME!!!
The scene in the movie was FANTABULOUS!!!
Shia LeBouf with his comedy act..
Crazy and funny..

And new replacement for Megan Fox..

Meet Rosie Huntington-Whiteley

You guys should watch this movie!!

Back to study before I go to KL again this Wed..

Love E

My cute lil doggie..

2011-07-02T00:42:00.000-07:00

This is my cute lil doggie..
I called him Doggie(mcm x da nama lain)
Haha...

I love cats and dogs..
Hehe...

Wanna have this as my pet..

Love E

A New Month for me

2011-06-30T22:41:00.000-07:00

July...
A new schedule for me..
Haha..

Going to Nugrahan this 6 and 7 of July for an exam and interview to Udayana..
Can't wait to meet the officer..
Haha..

By the way, my sis, Kak Ashkurina will be in Kuching this Monday..
Yeah..
Can't wait to meet my sis!!

She will kill me when she saw this pic!!

I feel like I am the ambassador of Kuching..

Haha..

July..

3 more days for my favourite song!!!

Love E

Zon Inggar bersama Kak Lehot..

2011-06-29T08:41:00.000-07:00

Finally I found my medicine to make me laugh..
Haha...
It's a radio show..
Zon Inggar bersama Kak Lehot..

So funny and it makes me proud as the show potrays the varieties in Sarawak Malay language..
I like..
It's on Cats FM...

Try listen to it!!!

P.S..If u wanna listen to this, make sure u press Pause button on the I Phone on the right sidebar..Thanz!!!Listen to it k!!

Love E

E to the R to the I to the C..What do u get???!!!!E!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-06-29T01:14:00.000-07:00

Give me an E..emo unstable is typical me
R..r u gonna treat me right?!!!
I..I can put a fight!!!
Give me a C..cmon get wild tonight!!!

♥ E

Counting down to July

2011-06-28T08:55:00.000-07:00

Counting down to July..
Will be busy with schedule and arranging stuff..
Going to be invisible starting July..

Wow..
Many things happened this June..
Until it juz changed my perspective towards the world..
OME!!

Firework!!!
I wish the day would come..

It will come...
Will wait for it...

Invisible Me..

Love E

Jar of Hearts of E

2011-06-26T10:35:00.000-07:00

As u guys realised that all my previous was about my outings with my beloved family and my BFF's..
I want to spend all my precious time with them as maybe it will be the same after this..
They were keep asking me when are u going to study in Indonesia..
Maybe some of u might wanna ask me why am I so free..
Wanna know my answer??
As u all know I ever mentioned about my unstable emotion when I missed someone that are very close to me but just lose contact like that..
Not that I demand for them to reply all my responses..
NEVER!!!
I understand them as they are also busy with their own activities and precious time with family....
So I treated my unstable state by hanging out with them..
~~Crying~~ is not an option for me as the tears dried on its own as I always cried last time..
Typical me...

By the way,

I will show u my pics with E Family when we celebrated Belated Father's Day with all my crazy and sporting attitude..All candids..

Mandi sungai

Diva Bus Stop Pose

E and my grandmother

E loves E Familia..

LOVE E

E Outing With Kuching Celebz Frenz 2

2011-06-25T04:14:00.000-07:00

OMD!!
I went out again with my Kuching Celebz Frenz but this time with Amy Lynette and Andreana..
Haha..
We promised to meet on Friday...
TGIF!!
Our plan..
We went to my BFF Harizan Kaider for his Lim Kok Wing Graduation Fashion Show..
His theme was Casual Wear..
His collections was AWESOME & FANTABULOUS!!!!
But something great happened when I introduced Amy and Andreana to 4 of my schoolmates, Rafiq, Shukri, Sadeeq and Harizan..
Here are the pics!!

Then we all hit the Tarot Cafe, a bistro which used 'fortune-teller card' theme..
A nice place to hang out..

Best moment of the day!!!
KARAOKE!!!
Haha..
Finally I can sing all my favourite songs there!!!
Teenage Dream, Firework, Born This Way, Tak Ada Logika and many more!!!
All of us were Wildly dance and sing at the same time..
Let me introduce u to my party peoples,
In the club!!!
Haha..

I enjoyed that outing with u guys!!
The pics of the year!!!

Love E

This is from my heart..

2011-06-24T10:14:00.000-07:00

This is all for all the peoples that have influence in my life but separated with the scars in me..

For u guys..

Love E

E Outing With Kuching Celebz Frenz

2011-06-23T09:10:00.000-07:00

Ola..
I went out with my E Kuching Celebz Frenz yesterday and we went to watch X Men First Class at The Spring..

I love Magneto..since his real name was Erik Leinshield..

Rafiq will be The Beast..

Shukri will be Angel

and Keith will be Banshee..

Haha..

Then our photoshoot started when we went to China!!

OMD!!!OME!!!

Really??!!!

Haha..U can find it here at Taman Sahabat..

U feel that u are in China..
Wanna see our shots??
Here they are...

]

We hit the airport for our dinner at KFC and for the first time in my life I got my first summon..
OME!!!OMD!!!

But It's ok to me..

When I told my dad about that, he was 'Wow'..apa kesalahan kau??
"Parking di tempat dilarang parking"

Haha..

Love E

Thank God for everything...

2011-06-22T22:22:00.000-07:00

I was shocked this morning when I was forced to wake up by my mother..
She told me to send my father to the clinic..

I was so shocked when I saw at my father's swollen hand..

It was self accident..

Thanz God for saving them k..

God is good all the time..

Love E

Happy Birthday to my brother, Patrik Fenandez!!!

2011-06-20T09:07:00.000-07:00

Happy 20th birthday to my brother, Patrik Fenandez..

Enjoy ur day..

E Family..

Patrik, my brother is at the right side of the pics..

My father was born on June 10..

Haha..

2 important dates in June for E family..

Love E

E Family Vacation at Kpg Segong..

2011-06-19T05:51:00.000-07:00

Finally..

My long waits to 'mandi sungai' finally paid off when our family went for a picnic at Kpg Segong, Bau..
Actually we planned to go back to E Village but it was cancelled due to some exchange in plan..

I'm happy!!!!!!!!!!

We went to Sungai Adis Bian Resort at Kpg Segong, Bau..
It was a nice place to have a picnic and maybe want to stay a night there as we can BBQ there..

Wah..

I LOVE 2day and Happy Father's day to my beloved Abah!!!

The pics...

My siblings and my cousins

My cute little sister, Cassandra

My dad in the middle

My mother in pink with floral short posed with her sisters

My cousin, Gary Marshall

Cat!!I love cat!!!Meow!!

Luckily u came to eat the leftovers..Haha..

E Pose

My cousin..Benjamin..He was born on March 8, one day before E Day

Not my cousins..Hahaa...They are the visitor there

Makan time..Traditional way...

My brother..Btw, he's bigger and taller than me

Love E

Diva Universal...

2011-06-16T22:10:00.000-07:00

I love to watch this channel as it contains all my favourite show..
Last time it was called Hallmark Channel but Diva Universal now..

I love to watch Hot in Cleveland..

All the characters potray all the attitude of my frenz and I..
Specifically Ricky Willy and Melzie..
I tagged them in my Hot In Cleveland album in my Facebook..
Haha..

From the right: Ricky, Willy, Me and Melzie in pink....Hahaha...

Then I loved to watch Fairly Legal..

Oh I love this show!!!!!

Kate Reed as the mediator..

Love her life..

She settled all the problems with her own way..haha..

Then I watched my mother show..

Oprah!!!!!!!!!!

Her farewell season..

Will miss her when she leave the show at the end of the year..

Back to E mode..

Tata..

Love E

Video of me....

2011-06-16T08:18:00.000-07:00

My frenz had a lot video of me..

Wanna watch it..

Reminds me of my crazy act while I was in college with my frenz..Especially in CR with my BFFs Ricky and Willy..
The video is posted in B-Shakers United Group..Hahaa....

Haha..

Love E

Finally it changed me..

2011-06-15T20:16:00.000-07:00

After I heard the song Who Am I Living For?? from my idol Katy Perry, it changed my whole perspective towards life...
Towards people..
We always miss someone who are very close to us but after I go through and knowing that peoples can just not to miss us back, maybe it's time for me to throw that feeling of caring..

Life is hard doesn't it??
I learnt it the hard way..

Love hurts whether its right or wrong..

Thanz Katy Perry for writing this song..

I love this song!!!

Who am I living for??

Love E

Who am I living for????!!!

2011-06-14T20:37:00.000-07:00

I can feel a phoenix inside of me
As I march alone to a different beat
Slowly swallowing down my fear, yeah yeah

I am ready for the road less traveled
Suiting up for my crowning battle
This test is my own cross to bear
But I will get there

It's never easy to be chosen, never easy to be called
Standing on the frontline when the bombs start to fall
I can see the heavens but I still hear the flames
Calling out my name

I can see the writing on the wall
I can't ignore this war
At the eh-end of it all
Who am I living for?

I can feel this lightness inside of me
Growing fast into a bolt of lightning
I know one spark will shock the world, yeah yeah

So I pray for a favour like Esther
I need your strength to handle the pressure
I know there will be sacrifice
But that's the price

It's never easy to be chosen, never easy to be called
Standing on the frontline when the bombs start to fall
I can see the heavens but I still hear the flames
Calling out my name

I can see the writing on the wall
I can't ignore this war
At the eh-end of it all
Who am I living for?

I can see the writing on the wall
I can't ignore this war
At the eh-end of it all
Who am I living for?

At the end, at the end
Who am I living for?
At the end, at the end
Who am I living for?

Heavy is the head that wears the crown
Don't let the greatness get you down
Heavy is the head that wears the crown
Don't let the greatness get you down, oh, oh yeah

I can see the writing on the wall
I can't ignore this war
At the eh-end of it all
Who am I living for?

I can see the writing on the wall
I can't ignore this war
At the eh-end of it all
Who am I living for?

At the end, at the end
Who am I living for?
At the end, at the end
Who am I living for?

Love E

Wanna live like this..TGIF!!

2011-06-13T20:21:00.000-07:00

Wanna live like her..Haha..

P.S..Before u wanna watch this on my blog, try to press PAUSE button on the I Phone Music Player on your right..Thanz..

Enjoy...

Love E

E Gawai Hooliday..

2011-06-13T20:03:00.000-07:00

Ola..
Long time no blogging..
With all the EMO UNSTABLE E last time, but I won;t let it destroy my E Gawai Holiday with my family..
Gawai Dayak..
Celebrated by all Dayaks in Sarawak on June 1 and 2..
However..
In Sarawak itself, we celebrated it for almost 1 week..
Haha..
My Gawai..
I helped my mother to bake two cakes..
Haha..
E Chef..

I love Gawai but u know..
When I went to my village, they called me 'ALIM' or 'IMAN' because I never went out from my house when there is a party or celebration..
My reason..

It's not that I'm 'alim' or 'iman' but I'm not used to their style of party..It is totally different from my lifestyle..Haha..

Anyway..
Thanz to my sweet and cute lil nieces and nephews who always wake us up as early as 730am..Haha..
They will jump on us and asked us to play with them..
Love them!!

I also went out for E KTT Reunion Sarawak Edition with Amy, Andreana, Joe, Sean, Eshabelle and her cousin..Haha..

We wrote our own letter and biodata for Amy and Sean..
Haha..

So we went to meet at The Spring..

Then we went to Waterfront and Fort Margherita..
What a long walk to got there(refer to Fort Margherita)..
Before that we had to cross the Sarawak River by using boat from Waterfront..
Amy, Sean, Esha and her cousin with Joe..
First time naik boat...
Funny them...hehe..
U can also buy Kek Lapis Sarawak at the opposite of Waterfront..
The place was AWESOME!!
Wow..
We all were very tired when we reached there as we needed to climb the hill to go to Fort Margherita..
Wow..
Amy and Sean had their leg cramped for 5 minutes..
OMD!!

After that we went to Mist Cafe..
To eat and play games..

We play Topples Game (i dunno the name of the game??)

Taboo..Interesting game!!

Enjoy the Reunion with them!!!Gonna miss and love them all!!

On 10th June..It was my beloved Abah's birthday..
We organised a small party for him and we made him a cake..
Simple one..Haha..
A dance karaoke party kampung style..
Haha..

I enjoyed this E Gawai Holiday..
Btw, this may be my last post for this month as I need to concentrate on my exam and interview..Haha.,
K..Tata..

Love E

I realised..

2011-06-12T23:56:00.000-07:00

I realised something 2day..

E..
ur a nice person..
ur so kind..
ur so caring..
ur so good..

OMD!!!!

Is that me??!?!!

Am I a good person???
Why I always love to take care of a person??
Why me???

Sometimes because of my good deeds people will remember me as that..

Because of that I had a feeling...

STOP THAT E!!!

If we ever meet again..

How I wish I could be an angel and had no feeling at all towards people..
Only listen to His command..

Or be like Jean Grey??

I was Born This Way..

I love this part in the song..

Complete lyrics: http://www.directlyrics.com/lady-gaga-born-this-way-lyrics.html
Whether life's disabilities
Left you outcast, bullied or teased
Rejoice and love yourself today
'Cause baby, you were born this way

No matter gay, straight or bi
Lesbian, transgendered life
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born to survive

Who says
Who says you're not perfect
Who says you're not worth it
Who says you're the only one that's hurting
Trust me
That's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty
Who says you're not beautiful
Who says

Kadang-kadang kita tidak menyedari sesuatu sehingga benda itu berlaku depan mata..

Maybe I should be to caring to a person..

Envisible me..

That's better..

Actually I want to avoid everyone but suddenly out of nowhere they will find me..

R u ok??

Teenage Dream??

Still alive??

I want to be with an alien now..

Asians...

Philipines..Indonesia..Americano..Paris..Las Vegas..

Wanna be on the floor..

or...

Live like in Resident Evil..

Love the part when she said, 'I know ur sister, she's a HOMICIDAL BITCH!!!!!

Actually, u need an E Dictionary to understand some the term..

Example..

The real meaning of OMD!!Hehe...

I can't be tamed!!!I'm wild!!!

Eric..Kau jalan catwalk..
Kau minat lagu tu??Euww..
Kau punya *** besar..
Kau ni pose mcm model..
Badan kau V..
Knp kau minat sgt dia??

My answer, Thanz for that!!!Haha..

Actually, I'm juz E..

Love E..

E's ok..

2011-06-05T00:49:00.001-07:00

I'm ok now..

Love E

I wish..

2011-06-04T05:52:00.000-07:00

All my life have been good but now..
WHAT THE HELL!!!

Many things happened in my life this week and many things to accept and absorb..
Recently I received a news that I get a placement in Universitas Udayana in Bali, Indonesia but I have to undergo an exam and an interview to comfirm my seat there..

U know, I was happy when I got the news (before I received the news about the exam and the interview)..I think for now my life would be easier with just get myself prepared to go there but then when I have to undergo the exam..My life turn 720 degrees..OMD!!

I was unstable until I suffered migrain for the first time..
I HATE THAT!!!
So, many peoples asked to control my emotion..
I went to theraphy..
Then, I decided that...
I will throw away my emotion..
Means I will never had the EMO, HAPPY OR EXCITED etc..
Half of my soul had flew away..
The E that always be happy no matter how many failure strucked him has gone 4eva..
Wanna be E with stagnant feeling..
Normal E like E when he was in SPM Level..
Urghh!!
The EMOest post that I ever did in my E Blog!!

U know..
Although I was in stress but I can find peace when I looked at baby and small kids..
Cat too..
I don't know but all of my niece and nephews love to be with me..
Even my parents also said that kids are comfortable around u rather than my other cousins..

Haha..
The feeling's gone..

So much for my happy ending..

I will continue to fight although without my Chaiyok2 E Spirit..

For now, I watched a lot of WWE just to relieve my boredom and stress mode..

I wish I was abducted by an alien..

Away from the hurt and pain...

I will struggle like what my BFF Aliff said to me,

Do this as your last fight for your own future..

I will do like what u said Aliff..

Love E..

Move On

2011-05-25T02:34:00.000-07:00

What happen in the past, stays in the past..
To move forward, u have to learn from ur past..

That's what I always told to myself..
U know..
Last year was the most UNSTABLE YEAR or should I say my BLACKOUT YEAR where there was the time where I suddenly became a different person when something triggers me..

OMD!!!

I wanna to move forward from this..
I wanna forget everything..
I wanna to move on..

I know the truth..
The truth that make me realised who I am and what a foolish me back then,..

I really respect Britney Spears when she also had her Blackout Moment when she was married to Kevin Federline, making her life like a living hell!!
That's why I think that I should be like Britney..
Now, she can move forward with her life and with her two cute babies..
She regained back her fame..
That's makes her my idol..

So, I should move forward too..
The feelings that I had in my past although I can't forget it but one of my best friends told me that u should not forget the feeling because the feeling was pure but u should move on..

E will move on..
I will try to adapt this new E and control myself..
I can be E Drama..Ennocent and humblE but it's all in new me..

Move on..

Love E..

W Tour with E in Kuching

2011-05-24T07:20:00.000-07:00

Ola everyone..
This whole week I was busy with W Tour with E in Kuching from May 21 till May 24..
Wow..
Let me tell u..
It was very tiring tour for me but I enjoyed it very much since I spent my precious time with one of my best friends, Willy..
OMD!!!
The experience..
OMD2!!
I was driving LEGALLY for the first time..
Haha..

May 21..
I picked Willy up at Kuching International Airport around 1130 am..Actually, on that day also, Saturday..I had to send my brother to the saloon and picked up my sister at her school..Pity Willy because he had to follow us as well so we reached E House around 1600..
But, we had the time to eat our Banana MatKool Ice Cream while waiting for my brother to finish his hair cut in the saloon..

MatKool Banana Ice Cream..OMD!!

Look at Willy..Holding 2 bananas......ice cream..

May 22

Willy and Melzie had their interview with International Medicine University (IMU) at Riverside Majestic Hotel..So I had to send Willy there around 930am to meet Melzie there..The interview was held on the 18th floor..Wow..Haha..

Getting ready for the interview..all the bez..

Before this tour started, Melzie and I were planning a birthday surprise for Eshabelle and Willy..So I had to buy the cake on that day and I was rushing because it was Sunday and many peoples would go out on that day..Finally I found one at Mita's Cake House..Haha..
Joeffrey, Eshabelle and her cousin and our K-Queen Farah were at McDonald waiting for us to be there..Farah brought the Belgian Chocolate for Joe after she had her FANTABULOUS holiday in Paris and London!!!
Haha..Otw to McD..Melzie, Willy and I were like a celebrity exposing themselves to the public...
We took a lot of pics while we were walking..OMD!!!
Look at this!!!

Melzie tu takut lintas jalan..haa..

Melzie & Willy at the famous Cat Statue!!

Gossip!!

OMD!!!Mcm Diva!!

We continued with the birthday pics now..Hehe..

E!!Sha!! and W Diva Birthday Cake

Birthday babies yg berumur 20 tahun..haha..

A big family..

Then, we went to Tun Jugah and Sarawak Plaza and to Willy and Esha surprise, we were shopping for their gifts..Thanz to our K-Queen Farah for sponsoring that gift..

Miss Fitness World competition..

We hit the Spring for our next tour..Haha..Semua nmpk penat tp kita enjoy!!!

Photo Shooting Time!!

Duta-Duta The Spring..

Willy's Birthday Gift

BFF T-shirt for E & W..Thanz Esha for helping us to select this outfit..

Thanz to Padinni Concept Store..

May 23

It was the last day for Willy to spent his time in Kuching with me..

So, I took him to the Spring again and we watched Double Movie that day..

First, it was Pirates Of The Caribbean..

One of my favourite movies..

Loves all the scenes in it especially when Syrena the Mermaid kiss the religious man Philip and save his life..

We called Ricky the mermaid as the mermaids are maneater and he replied back by calling me Dugong and Willy Manatee..Haha..

Wow..

Then we decided to watch the second movie which was The Priest..

Awesome action movie as it was all about The Priest who had the special power given by God to fight the vicious vampire..OMD!!!

Everything was Double for that day..

Double Chicken Rice for Lunch and Dinner..
Double Japanese Tea..

Double Hot Plain Water..(ceritanya macam ini, Willy order air Teh Panas untuk kami berdua tapi dengan konfidennya cashier tu beri air panas dan suruh dia bayar RM1..Willy pun terkejut dan saya order lagi Japanese Tea tu sebagai ganti..Adoi..)

The pics..

ANMUM??

OMD!!

May 24..

We woke up at 540am and departed from my house around 645am to go to the Kuching International Airport as Willy need to check in around 725am..

We went to McD to have our breakfast there..

We talked about all the experience that we had together and heart-to-heart secret..Haha..

Then, I sent him to the Boarding Hall..

The funniest thing happened to me at the airport was when we entered the parking lot at the airport, I had to push the ticket machine to obtain our Parking Ticket but..

My hand was too short to push the button so I had to 'menjalar' keluar like a flamingo to take the ticket..

Luckily there was no car behind me..

Kalau x, malu I..Haaha..

Thanz Willy for giving me all the confidence and courage when I faced some troubles..

Thanz Willy for being a wonderful and awesome companion to listen to all my problems..

Thanz Willy for giving me an opening experience about how the real meaning of Friends is...

Love E

It's E in Formspring

2011-05-20T07:13:00.001-07:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/EricFenandez

Love E

The Real Paparazi

2011-05-19T04:06:00.000-07:00

Remember when I told u guys about a friend of mine who wanted to interview me about my current life and actually went looking for my house for that reason??

This is the real person..

His name is Shukri..

I asked him," If u are a paparazi, where's ur camera??"
He answered, "Well, U can't see the camera on me!!!"
Haha..

Actually he was waiting for his lesson before his JPJ Test the next day..
All the bez to u and thanz for 'Terjah"ing me!!

Love E

A song from the heart..

2011-05-13T10:06:00.000-07:00

I love this song dedicated to u..

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
We were always just that close
Wrist wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So how come when I reach out my fingers
It feels like more than distance between us

[Chorus]
In this california king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I bet california wishing on these stars
of the heart for me
My california king

Eye to eye
Cheek to cheek
Side by side
You were sleeping next to me
Arm to arm
Dusk to dawn
With the curtains drawn
And a little last nite on these sheets
So how come when I reach out my fingers
It feels like more than distance between us

[Chorus]
In this california king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I bet california wishing on these stars
of the heart for me
My california king

Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got better
So confused wanna ask you if you love me
But I dont wanna seem so weak
Maybe I've been california dreaming

[Chorus]
In this california king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I bet california wishing on these stars
of the heart for me
My california king

In this california king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I bet california wishing on these stars
of the heart for me
My california king

The true Rihanna and E..

Love E

Judas..

2011-05-10T21:26:00.000-07:00

Controversial song but I love the beats!!

Ohohohoh
I'm in love with Judas, Judas

Ohohohoh
I'm in love with Judas, Judas

Judas! Juda-as Judas! Juda-as
Judas! Juda-as Judas! GAGA

[Lady Gaga - Verse 1]
When he comes to me, I am ready
I'll wash his feet with my hair if he needs
Forgive him when his tongue lies through his brain
Even after three times, he betrays me

I'll bring him down, bring him down, down
A king with no crown, king with no crown

[Chorus]

I'm just a Holy Fool, oh baby he's so cruel
But still I'm in love with Judas, baby
I'm just a Holy Fool, oh baby he's so cruel
But still I'm in love with Judas, baby

Ohohohoh
I'm in love with Judas, Judas

Ohohohoh
I'm in love with Judas, Judas

Judas! Juda-as Judas! Juda-as
Judas! Juda-as Judas! GAGA

[Lady Gaga - Verse 2]
I couldn't love a man so purely
Even prophets forgave his crooked way
I've learned love is like a brick you can
Build a house or sink a dead body

I'll bring him down, bring him down, down
A king with no crown, king with no crown

[Chorus]
I'm just a Holy Fool, oh baby he's so cruel
But still I'm in love with Judas, baby
I'm just a Holy Fool, oh baby he's so cruel
But still I'm in love with Judas, baby

Ohohohoh
I'm in love with Judas, Judas

Ohohohoh
I'm in love with Judas, Judas

[Bridge]
In the most Biblical sense,
I am beyond repentance
Fame hooker, prostitute wench, vomits her mind
But in the cultural sense
I just speak in future tense
Judas kiss me if offenced,
Or wear an ear condom next time

I wanna love you,
But something's pulling me away from you
Jesus is my virtue,
And Judas is the demon I cling to
I cling to

[Chorus]
I'm just a Holy Fool, oh baby he's so cruel
But still I'm in love with Judas, baby
I'm just a Holy Fool, oh baby he's so cruel
But still I'm in love with Judas, baby

Ohohohoh
I'm in love with Judas, Judas

Ohohohoh
I'm in love with Judas, Judas

Judas! Juda-as Judas! Juda-as
Judas! Juda-as Judas! GAGA

Try to watch the video at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wagn8Wrmzuc

Eric Fenandez @ E

Never be the same again..

So sad..

Bali Part 3

E Life in Bali..SECRET REVEALED!!!!! Chapter 2

E Life in Bali..SECRET REVEALED!!!!!

Ola from Bali!!

VMA 2011 Nominations!!

Dangdut in E Life part 1

Let's Dance Together..

Jika..

E Farewell Outing

Sinetron Addict!!!

Jangan Menyerah

Kuching Tour with Kak Ashkurina

E's Back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4th of July!!!

Awesome Transformation Sunday for E

My cute lil doggie..

A New Month for me

Zon Inggar bersama Kak Lehot..

E to the R to the I to the C..What do u get???!!!!E!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Give me an E..emo unstable is typical meR..r u gonna treat me right?!!!I..I can put a fight!!!Give me a C..cmon get wild tonight!!!

♥ E

Counting down to July

Jar of Hearts of E

E Outing With Kuching Celebz Frenz 2

This is from my heart..

E Outing With Kuching Celebz Frenz

Thank God for everything...

Happy Birthday to my brother, Patrik Fenandez!!!

E Family Vacation at Kpg Segong..

Diva Universal...

Video of me....

Finally it changed me..

Who am I living for????!!!

Wanna live like this..TGIF!!

E Gawai Hooliday..

I realised..

E's ok..

I wish..

Move On

W Tour with E in Kuching

It's E in Formspring

The Real Paparazi

A song from the heart..

Judas..

Give me an E..emo unstable is typical me
R..r u gonna treat me right?!!!
I..I can put a fight!!!
Give me a C..cmon get wild tonight!!!